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13th Apr, 2009 @ 16:45 say no to hr669
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FPfL212CB8

If you live in the US please oppose this bill.
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18th Feb, 2009 @ 21:11 i'm sorry
i'm sorry to all those i've ever hurt, i'm sorry to those who feel i've hurt them and i never realised. I'm sorry for those i'm about to hurt and I'm just generally sorry I was born.
I should never have had gabriel, i'm a shite mother, i only ever want time for myself away from him for a bit and that selfish when he should come first. I'm sorry for my family. I'm fed up being bailed out of money issues by my parents of wills mum. i';m sorry to will for not being a good enough wife. i'm sorry to my parents for being a failure and a fuck up of a daughter. i'm sorry to all those i'm letting down and i'm sorry that mother earth had to pass up on a possible good person by having me come into teh world instead. i'm a waste of space, a waste of flesh and a waste of air.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't be here. I'm a big mistake.
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4th Feb, 2009 @ 02:10 tweet me up
www.twitter.com

come join me and stephen fry along with a whole host of others who are on here. its great fun.

microbloging for the win.
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21st Jan, 2009 @ 01:31 Kinda back
Well, its now 2009 and months since i last posted anything on here.
I'm usually on bebo of facebook and haven't really updated much of anything in a wee while.

I'm hoping to blog more on LJ this year. I know there are a few of my friends who think i've dropped off the face of the earth, however, no I'm still here. Feeling the credit crunch adn trying to keep my head above water whilst dealing with a terrible 2's toddler but getting there :)

I'll update a wee bit more tomorrow, i'm off to my bed.

Nighty night,
Hugs,
Neen/Tufty

xxxx
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10th Dec, 2007 @ 22:52 pinched from sephikun
On the twelfth day of Christmas, reznor_slave sent to me...
Twelve reptiles drumming
Eleven cats piping
Ten demons a-leaping
Nine animals drawing
Eight unicorns a-swimming
Seven cartoons a-writing
Six ponies a-healing
Five bu-u-u-ubbles
Four transformers
Three care bears
Two online games
...and a werewolf in a pornography.
Get your own Twelve Days:
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2nd Nov, 2007 @ 10:38 Halloween Party
Hello all, been a while since I last posted anything worth while.

I'm having a halloween party tomorrow night at my house and I'm looking forward to it. After all the upset and meds lately its nice to have something fun to look forward to.

I also wanted to say in this post that I'm feeling very sentimental and nostalgic. I want to apologise for not being online much and not really talking to anyone a lot lately. I've very much been wrapped up in my own life and its been sucking me down a little.

Anyways, To everyone who is a friend/family member. I know we may not always talk or get to spend much time with each other atm, but I want you to know that I care a lot about you and I'm always thinking about you and wondering how you are and what you're up to.
I want everyone in my life to know they are special to me and that you mean the world to me. I wouldn't be who I am today without friends like you.

*huge mega huggles of joy and thanks*

Neen
xx
 
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31st Oct, 2007 @ 08:34 Happy Halloween
Happy Halloween everyone. pics to follow soon. :)
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21st Sep, 2007 @ 23:36 what if...........

what if you only had one of everything?

like one eye adn one hand with one finger and one thumb, one lung, one kidney, one leg with one toe on it. what if you only had one buttock? would you fall off seats ?

if you only had one nostril would you only have half a nose or just one blocked nostril?
you have 2 sides to ur brain but only one brain so how would that work?

if you only had one of everything how would you live?
you sure as hell couldn't game, or pick things up or do very much of anything, hell if you got a cold you'd be pretty screwed.

It's kinda put my life in perspective you know. I have a lot to be thankful for.
Thats all for now.

"One finger one thumb keep moving...."

(disclaimer: this post was made out of sheer insanity and an almost 2 hour long phone call, it is not meant to offend or upset anyone or make fun of anyone)

I'm off to try and sit on only one buttock, this may prove painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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21st Sep, 2007 @ 20:38 lyrics - hole in my soul - aerosmith
Current Mood: crappy

Im down a one way street
With a one night stand
With a one track mind
Out in no mans land
(the punishment sometimes dont seem to fit the crime)

Yeah theres a hole in my soul
But one thing Ive learned
For every love letter written
Theres another one burned
(so tell me how its gonna be this time)

Is it over
Is it over
Is it over
cause Im blowinout the flame

Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who turns the knife inside of me
Take a look and you will find theres nothing there girl
Yeah I swear, Im telling you girl yeah cause
Theres a hole in my soul thats been killing me forever
Its a place where a garden never grows
Theres a hole in my soul, yeah I should have known better
cause your loves like a thorn without a rose

Im as dry as a seven year drought
I got dust for tears
Yeah Im all tapped out
(sometimes I feel broken and cant get fixed)

I know theres been all kinds of shoes underneath your bed
Now I sleep with my boots on but youre still in my head
(and something tells me this time Im down to my last licks)
cause if its over
Then its over
And its driving me insane

Is it over
Yeah its over
And Im blowin out the flame

Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who turns the knife inside of me
Take a look and you will find
Theres nothing there girl, yeah, I swear
Im telling you girl yeah cause theres a hole in my soul
Thats been killing me forever
Its a place where a garden never grows theres a hole in my soul,
Yeah I should have known better
cause your loves like a thorn
Without a rose

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21st Sep, 2007 @ 20:19 that is all......................
Current Mood: crushed
 
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14th Sep, 2007 @ 04:24 borrowed from rickfan37
What Band's Symbol are You?
Nine Inch Nails' Symbol
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Nine Inch Nails' symbol represents you best. You are simple, but also unique. You like music that is different, but also music that has well thought out lyrics. Rock on!

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25th Aug, 2007 @ 22:54 Life and the humanity of it all!
Okies, I'm gonna have a little rant so i'll put it behind a cut so that you're not subjected to it unless you want to read :)

Read more... )

rant over.

back to living life for all it has to offer and loving my life and my family and friends :)

*hugs*

Blessed Be.
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24th Aug, 2007 @ 21:07 pinched from a king_laugh
Pay It Forward: I will send a handmade gift to the first 5 people who leave a comment here on my blog. I don’t yet know what that gift will be, but you will receive it within 365 days. The only thing you have to do in return is "pay it forward" by making a similar agreement on your blog.
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20th Aug, 2007 @ 18:34 Updatey kinda post
I don't think I've really posted much lately so I guess I should post now.

The past few months have been interesting.
There have been deaths, family gatherings (because of the deaths) and a lot of annoying bills stacking up.

On the good side Gabriel is now just over 8 months. He still only has 2 teeth but hes getting really big now and like to roll around a lot. He's getting up onto his hands and knees but then kinda stays there. If we try to get him to sit he only wants to stand up. He likes to stand (with us supporting him under his arms) and bends his knees and stomps his feet. He's also beginning to pay attention to his surroundings and is getting to know different people and remember them. He doesn't tend to cry so much around people unless he is really tired. He loves to laugh and smile but for the past two morning s he's decided its a good idea to get up at 5am! i was a zombie at work this morning. I think I may have to up his baby food to 3 meals soon. He gets two baby meals and 4 bottles atm.

Speaking of work, I'm now working part time in Tesco's. I do 14 hours a week :) I'm enjoying it so far. I'm working on the checkouts and its kinda relaxing to get out and be with other adults for a bit.
I go out for walks with my friend Marianne a lot atm, we go up the street most afternoons when I'm not working and Gabe and her little girl Morgan seem to get on and like each others company. I enjoy having Marianne's company too. It's good to be able to go out again. I was beginning to fence myself into the house again and was getting skittish at the thought of going outside, but Marianne and work have helped my confidence loads. We're even talking about going swimming sometime and I never thought I'd be confident enough to get into a swim suit this year!

I'm still trying to lose the baby weight I have from after Gabes birth and its "slowly" going. I'm attending a friends wedding in December and I really want it gone by then or at least to be a little flatter.

I've been having house guests most weekends which is great fun.
Dave comes through from Inverness and we had Andy up the other weekend too.
Pippa and Sephi were up this weekend and I'm hoping to make it a monthly event and we were talking about my halloween party the first weekend in November. It's all getting really exciting. I have a new lease on life and am enjoying myself again. I love spending time with Gabe again, for a while I was getting really tired and fed up and just wanted to crawl under a rock to sleep my life away and now I have far too much stuff to do.
Having had my gallbladder out too my general health is vastly improved too :)

I think thats all I really have to update with atm.

Oh, one last thing. Having had a lot of time to think about things etc I've decided to properly concentrate on pagan path. I'm a practicing Wiccan now and enjoying the outlook and change of mental clarity it has brought me. I feel happier and far more contented in myself :)

Thank you to all those, near and far who have helped add to fixing me. Its taken a while but I'm getting there again :)

*hugs*
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17th Aug, 2007 @ 14:51 pinched from rickfan37
The Ultimate LiveJournal Obsession Test
CategoryYour ScoreAverage LJer
Community Attachment49.46%
There's a party in your comments page, and everyone's invited!
22.68%
MemeSheepage52.63%
I am but one quiz among millions. My brethren surround me on the page.
27.83%
Original Content58.06%
Using LiveJournal to express a few strong opinions
37.93%
Psychodrama Quotient62.65%
Would it kill you to smile? CHEER UP!
16.72%
Attention Whoring11.36%
Slothfully Seeking Susan
20.67%
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16th Aug, 2007 @ 23:09 woot, bow to my balance :)
42.857142857142854% of me is a huge nerd! How about you?
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27th Jul, 2007 @ 23:08 update! *gasp*
Its the first time i've updated in a little while and some of its good but most of its bad.

My period started for the first time in about 2 months. (good thing)
Gabriel is teething (good and bad thing)
hes waking through the night and pretty much screaming all day (bad thing)
we're boht still unemployed (bad thing)
Mounting bills (bad thing)
had visitors: Lorna and Kayla, Matrin and Shirley and Jess over from the States (good thing)
General stress levels are high but we're holding it together, just, and as long as we have each other we'll be ok. soppy as that sounds its true.

Got some more drawings done (good thing)
I have a small space of my own to meditate and chill out in (good things), but its in the drying cupboard (bad thing)
and I now have a solid metal dance mat that won't break on me when I ddr (very good thing)
we're making up another computer to go in the spare room and I can ddr in there and get fit, it'll also serve as a computer for use of wow or internet when we have guests (good thing)

I think thats almost all my news.
As well as teething gabe is trying to stand when we hold him by the underarms on the floor and he kinda bounces up and down a bit, he looks really cute doing it. and he went on a train for the first time this week adn was very well behaved. Hes really a good little boy but all this screaming with the teething is almost driving us both insane, thank god it'll pass.

anyways, I hope as always that everyone is well and life is being good to you all.

*hugs*
Take care.
neen
xx
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10th Jul, 2007 @ 10:07 pinched from many_angled_one
You scored as Turk, You're Turk the surgeon. You are funny, and romantic. You love your friends, but they can get emabarrassing at times, too.

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Janitor

65%

Turk

65%

Dr. Bob Kelso

65%

Elliot

60%

Dr. Perry Cox

55%

Carla

40%

J.D.

35%

Which Scrubs Character are you??
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21st Jun, 2007 @ 02:42 pinched from crazy craig
DisorderYour Score
Major Depression:High
Dysthymia:High-Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:Extremely High
Cyclothymia:High
Seasonal Affective Disorder:High
Postpartum Depression:High-Moderate
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hmm, i've been meaning to see a dr about the listlessness and lethargy not to mention the "down" feeling i've been having, i guess i just don't wanna hear the answer. hmmm....must find a way to cheer up.....after i sleep!!!!! sleep is good, must sleep!!!!

nighty night.
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16th Jun, 2007 @ 16:11 big events
3 days ago Gabriel turned 6 months and today when putting some teething gel on his gums he has his first tooth poking through his gums. Its his lower right front tooth :) no wonder he's been grumpy lately :)

I'm so chuffed :) he's been saying "da da da" for about a week now as well :) what a cool pressie Gabe got his daddy adn all without even knowing or having to spend a penny.

I'll update more later.

*hugs*
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